It has been so long since I was able to sit down and share with all of you. I've been busy with the different aspects of my life, but lately being a mom to my boys has been my focus, taking up all my time and energy. I recently shared this message with my Facebook and Instagram followers:
I don’t get to paint as often as many artisans. I used to scroll the Instagram and Facebook feeds and feel full of anxiety like I was missing my moment. I used to feel stressed and try to force it because I felt like I had to meet these unrealistic goals each week to achieve my dream. But in this season I am a mom, a wife and an artisan and God has His plans for me. My path is unique, designed for me by my Heavenly Father. I’m learning to take the steps, one at a time, that He lays before me. I’m learning to stay in the moment and not look too far ahead. Most importantly, I’m learning to trust Him and His plans for my family. ❤️
Since transitioning from being a full-time special education teacher to being a full-time mom, I have really struggled with my identity, my worth and my purpose. Lately, the Lord has been speaking to me about being confident and content with who I am as well as where I am in this season of my life.
"But godliness with contentment is great gain." 1 Timothy 6:6
This is certainly challenging in this status-based, material-accruing, money-making society. What He is trying to instill in me, is the very opposite of what the world teaches.
"'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,' declares the LORD." Isaiah 55:8
This season has been one of the most challenging to date. It has been filled with tears, confusion, doubt, frustration, and so many other messy emotions. But if I look back at the journey, the path that we've walked, there has been so much growth and maturity. My faith has matured and my relationship with Christ is so much deeper and more meaningful. He has been transforming me from the inside out, my heart and my spirit being transformed profoundly and permanently.
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2
Our Heavenly Father never has us walk through the fire unless there is a purpose for it. He has faithfully been walking with us, comforting us, encouraging us, protecting us, and providing for us every step of the way. I can't help but think it has all been in preparation for this next season and if that is true, watch out world!
"Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him." James 1:12
I'm waking up every morning with great anticipation of what is to come!