For those of you that read my blog or are close to me, you know that I lost a pregnancy in July. It broke my heart as it was a loss and a pain that I had never experienced before. It was the Lord Himself that brought me through that time.
"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
In a very personal way, He revealed Himself to me and comforted me while I mourned the loss of our child. It's both one of the saddest times in my life and one of the most cherished.
"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." Matthew 5:4
After that loss, my husband and I were not trying to get pregnant. We were still in mourning and had talked about how it may not be meant for us to have another child.
"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:26
In September, I found out I was pregnant. It literally brought me to my knees because it was truly a miracle. We hadn't been calculating days or keeping track of cycles. This was not our plan, it was God's.
"Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward." Psalm 127:3
My children are all miracles. They are all gifts from my Heavenly Father. This pregnancy, however, will forever remind me of how much the Lord truly loves me. His love for me is so powerful and so personal that He gifted me another pregnancy. In May, if it God's will, we will welcome our third son into this world.
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." James 1:17
This pregnancy has been symbolic for me as it has represented God's love for me. For the past seven months or so, when I think about the miracle growing inside me, see him on an ultrasound, hear his heartbeat or feel his movements, it has been a reminder of how much my Heavenly Father loves me and how His love is personal and intimate.
"I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me." Proverbs 8:17
His love is a precious gift that He gives to all of His children. The love He has for me, He has for all of His children. You are loved.